so in the last few weeks lil' d has gone on a major grub run.
literally.
every hour he's been in "feed me" mode.
i can't do anything but pull up my shirt and give the goods.
while i'm exhausted he's loving every second of eating. on top of this eating binge he is waking up earlier and earlier to practice his vocal skills. while waking at 6am, practicing til 6:30am, then going to sleep is fine with me, waking up at 5am is not. that is what he did today. instead of the sweet cooing though, he wanted me to play with him. hold him, let him stand on my stomach, make him laugh. when i didn't want to anymore he screamed bloody murder. while attempting to wake the whole neighborhood, he only managed to wake his sister. great. so double trouble both decide, "hey mom we want to stay up."
it's now 3:51pm and tubbs still has not had a nap. good grief. she's been fantastic so far but who knows once the sun sets.
lil d' is getting his second nap after screaming through the eating time.
it's so frustrating when he's hungry and it's right there! sometimes i get mad at him and sometimes i'm just in a bad mood from the lack of sleep and the deprived eating, relaxing, and thinking time. sometimes i just want to blame him for crying and not seeing it's there.
but then moments like this make me realize i'm just being mean and insensless. he's a baby and doesn't know any better. i can say, "hey bubby can you get me some water?" and he would. but lil' d can't say, "hey mom i'm thirsty, hey mom i'm tired. hey mom, mommy, mama..."
all he can do is cry. i feel so bad for him and cry for him sometimes. just a tear or two. i know he means well i know he doesn't know he's keeping me up all night and running like a crazy person all day.
he just looks at me with his sweet face and smiles. he's telling me thanks and i love you. he loves me. i'm his whole world. i'm so thankful to be something to someone.
this is what makes the breastfeeding so worth every moment. all he knows is to find mom when he's hungry.
i'll never let him down. i want to dedicate everything i have to him. he doesn't have to thank me. i just want to be loved. i just want to see his sweet little face everyday for the rest of my life.
awww
little D.
moe
every hour he's been in "feed me" mode.
i can't do anything but pull up my shirt and give the goods.
while i'm exhausted he's loving every second of eating. on top of this eating binge he is waking up earlier and earlier to practice his vocal skills. while waking at 6am, practicing til 6:30am, then going to sleep is fine with me, waking up at 5am is not. that is what he did today. instead of the sweet cooing though, he wanted me to play with him. hold him, let him stand on my stomach, make him laugh. when i didn't want to anymore he screamed bloody murder. while attempting to wake the whole neighborhood, he only managed to wake his sister. great. so double trouble both decide, "hey mom we want to stay up."
it's now 3:51pm and tubbs still has not had a nap. good grief. she's been fantastic so far but who knows once the sun sets.
lil d' is getting his second nap after screaming through the eating time.
it's so frustrating when he's hungry and it's right there! sometimes i get mad at him and sometimes i'm just in a bad mood from the lack of sleep and the deprived eating, relaxing, and thinking time. sometimes i just want to blame him for crying and not seeing it's there.
but then moments like this make me realize i'm just being mean and insensless. he's a baby and doesn't know any better. i can say, "hey bubby can you get me some water?" and he would. but lil' d can't say, "hey mom i'm thirsty, hey mom i'm tired. hey mom, mommy, mama..."
all he can do is cry. i feel so bad for him and cry for him sometimes. just a tear or two. i know he means well i know he doesn't know he's keeping me up all night and running like a crazy person all day.
he just looks at me with his sweet face and smiles. he's telling me thanks and i love you. he loves me. i'm his whole world. i'm so thankful to be something to someone.
this is what makes the breastfeeding so worth every moment. all he knows is to find mom when he's hungry.
i'll never let him down. i want to dedicate everything i have to him. he doesn't have to thank me. i just want to be loved. i just want to see his sweet little face everyday for the rest of my life.
awww
little D.
moe
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